T____T everybody!!! i'm going to start work next monday.......~~~!!?!?!?!??!!! OH NO!!!!!

still wanna slack somemore.. enjoy doing nothing at home a while more.. but dat will juz make me a useless person rite? haiz. guess i shd juz juz give myself a pat and yong gan de move on! mabe the job is not as bad as i think it is? and mabe the ppl there will be nice? at least i'll be doing real stuff, not temp anymore.

but the thot of having to wake up at 6am everyday, squeezing along wif everyone on the train.. den taking bus.. den work work work until lunchtime! and den work work work till 6pm! (or i hope so) and den continue squeezing on bus 95 to go back to squeezing on mrt.............

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so y do ppl work at all???????

den again, i haf to remind myself of the poor beggar and skinny children i saw while i was at batam. look at the indonesian maids in singapore who could onli haf one day of rest and hang out at lucky plaza, and not having seen their parents or children for more den a yr. and den continue to think abt all the families who applied for financial assistance while i was at cdc.

i remember thinking "aiyo, why need to apply for assistance? juz go n work la! some ppl are juz so lazy!" now the same thing applies to me! i am juz too lazy!! >_<

blissful childhood is juz so hard to shake off. hmm dat sounds weird, cuz i'm not a child since light yrs ago.. well, life of a slacker is juz too good. so hard to quit it T_T and i'm juz afraid of wads gg to happen to me i guess.. insecurity. fear of the unknown. realised i'm not as bold or adventurous as last time, when i could go n meet strangers n make frens over internet. or go ask for temp jobs w/o fearing abt how it would turn out.. or join some ccas all on my own. or some other outside club activity. and i even preferred to do them w/o frens! now.. i hope to see familiar faces everywhere i go. eat lunch alone oso will feel lonely! haiyo i muz be getting old.