these few days had been like being out on the rocky seas on a sampan.... dayung sampan...dayung dayung sampan... -_-

ANYWAY... 1 month back, i applied for this position with MOE... last week, i received an email from them, asking me to write a freaking essay on my achievements and values n beliefs etc... u know? i was realli excited cuz i tot this meant i had a chance! den my fren reminded me its onli an essay.. SO.. i worked realli hard on the essay on sunday morning.. cuz of the chalet from fri to sat.. and the deadline was like 8am on monday morning! so i was quite anxious to finish it.. finalli sent it on sun nite.. thinking dat they shd take another 2 weeks to reply me...

den mon 5am, woke up wif a sharp pain in the lower abdomen.. i tot stomache, so i went toilet.. but after a wh ile, i started feeling faint from the pain! it was realli realli painful.. like all energy were drained from my limbs and i was ready to collapse in the damp n stinky toilet! i managed to walk back to the living room bfore letting myself fall on the sofa.. n started calling for help.. by dat time.. the pain was unbearable... my mum came to my rescue.. my sis slept thru the whole thing! stupid sister. haha.. at least sy woke up n took a look at me. haha.. anyway, i figured it was my cramps acting up again.. cuz it was not the 1st time it happened.. so my mum fed me panadols... yes fed me cuz i couldnt even sit up straight... after a while i felt better... meaning still hurt like anything but i can stand up la.. den went to work...

den mon n tues.. i was deciding to quit or not to quit. actualli i was so sick of the job aleadi, i juz wanted to quit there n then. but of cuz i couldnt do dat.. and even if i could, i hadnt the guts to do it! i keep feeling like it's terrible of me to quit when my boss had been so nice to offere to switch me from the clinic side to the lab.. but then again, he had been saying dat for months.. i cant keep on waiting for things to happen rite? besides, the more i see things go in the lab, the more i dun wanna get in.. it was all so dull.. and my pay is terrible.. and i wun haf any career advancement in this at all cuz i'm onli a bachelor! not even an honors or masters.. sigh.. den i finalli decided to quit.. but my mind was still trying to get over the internal obstacle of thinking myself as a selfish and unreasonable brat who wans to quit when her boss is so nice. ARGH!

den today, moe called n say to go for interview next tues.. i was veri happy! n i told my colleagues abt my plans.. but they say i shd stay till i find a job.. but i feel dat i might hurry into another job dat i dun realli like juz bcuz i wanted to get out of dat place! if i am more comfortable and happy, i will be able to make better judgements.

actualli, i'm still scared shit out of my pants. i dunno whether this is the correct decision or not. i onli know this is realli wad i wanna do.. so.. pls hope for me dat i will be able to do it.. >_<




i haf made up my mind after talking to teresa.. realli miss the days when i used to talk a lot to her. she always makes a lot of sense! haha... ok.. i will do it on FRIdAY!!!

i need courage...




it's been a long time since i last blogged! nothing much had happened.. haha..

on thurs nite, i went to play bball wif my colleagues n boss.. cm joined in too.. bbal! can u imagine me playing it? i cant catch a ball properly w/o falling over my own legs... cm played too much.. now his whole body aching! poor thing.. =p den one of my colleagues fell down during the game.. we tot he had sprained his ankle.. n it got swollen after a while.. we were laughing it off.. but the next morning. he called the office n said dat the sinseh said it was a fracture! we were all so shocked! nobody tot it would end up so serious. gosh hope it's not dat bad. den when we went to the a&e of nuh to find him, we bot him a balloon. lolz. haha..

den on fri nite (ytd), co alumni had a chalet.. there wasnt much ppl there, but it was realli fun! the cake was realli delicious.. n they keep cracking stupid jokes.. kk appeared with another injury!! a big fat swollen finger wrapped up in bandage. but luckily he said it isnt anything serious. hope his finger will recover soon! oh ya, smthg realli exciting happened. at 4am in the morning, when everyone finally decided to sleep, we heard screaming n shouting from outside! we tot got rape or gang fight or smthg. but it wasnt, it was 2 families who stay opp of each other, quarrelling and threatening to fight. they kept slamming doors n tables n throwing stuff ard.. all the time their arguments filled with vulgarities.. babies n children crying.. n the women shouting for their husbands to stop. aiyo... 40++ aleadi.. y still fight like dat? anyway, i was a bit scared dat they might realli be gangsters, n might barged into our rooms! lol..

side note: recently not so frustrated anymore.. well still worried abt my job nn stuff, but not as bad.. i realli shd be more optimistic! like this quote from somewhere, apparently famous, "an optimist sees opportunity even in difficulty. wow so chim rite? haha.. i'm trying to make it my motto!!! go go go!




so long nv blog le... was i busy? NO! juz tired... tired of wad? i think i'm tired of life.....

no wait, i mean Working Life.

but i'm so fickled minded.. one day i decided dat i'm gonna quit soon. den the next i decided to wait till sep...end of contract.. den the next day i suddenly see myself being still there for the next year!!

wad am i to do? i dunn like the feeling of being unable to make a decision by myself.. like i cant control things.. sigh.. why muz one need money to live? why can we all be poor but happy?? Insecurity. dats why. we all cant feel secure without a single cent in our bank.. when we haf no money in our wallets, we will start feeling insecure aleadi! let alone the bank...

sometimes i feel as if i know wad to do.. but actualli... i have no clue at all.. zzz

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but good food helps to makes things better... ytd me n cm went to botak jones. it was good! their servings were super large.... if u wanna go try it out, its blk 608, amk ave 5. it's realli worth the time! =) their fries are special, with this chilli powder all over it.. yummy! den the egg mayo salad... heavenly!!! haha... and they are veri generous!! i ordered cajun chicken.. it was breast meat, but veri tender!! realli good.. next time post photo for u all to see...

todayy met my sis n sy for dinner.. went billy bombers.. yummy too. i'm sure u all know la. haha. the baked mussels with cheese on top of them were too good to describe.. makes me so happy to chew them inside of my mouth!!! the rest were all good too. but it was a meaty meal.. think tml haf to eat more vege... =p




been wanting to do this for a long time....but so lazy.. hehe..

6 weird things abt myself!

1. i always wear my contacts lens for my left eye before my right eye.. removing also... always remove left eye lens den right eye.. hehe...

2. i brush teeth also will brush from left to right...

3. i hold knife in left hand and fork in right hand... all of these and yet i'm a common right-hander.. lol

4. like to talk out loud when i'm thinking.. lol or rather, i always talk to myself. hahaha..

5. i haf sleeping disorder.. once every few days i'll have trouble sleeping.. den i'll take half a pill of sleeping pill.. =(

6. weirdest of all.. last time i used to say guys from boys schs are weird, and i wan a bf 5 yrs older than me. now i haf a bf who is from TCHS and he is my age. lol...

yups so this is the 6 weird things abt me.. haha.. if u read my blog, u r tagged! =p


it's weekend again.. i cant wait for end of may to be here... for my spa trip~! today is my 1st time doing PCR and egene alone.. well the process was ok i guess.. but the resulst... dunno.. haf to ask kat on mon.. sigh i'm so lucky to haf such nice colleagues ard me... realli hope i will not let them down.. and pick up the skills quickly!!!




Last sunday, i went to the art museum with val after our dance class.. we had such a great time! the exhibition we went to was an amazing collection of glamorous photographs of superstars around asia, like LEEHOM =p and Gackt and even Zoe Tay and Christopher Lee! there were a lot a lot of beautiful pictures to look at.. it was realli a great collection..



we werent allowed to take photos inside the exhibition, so we satisfied ourselves by taking silly photos with the commercial ad outside (by the same photograher i assumed)

gosh... i look fat.. gotta slim down.. val is so tiny i feel like a giant beside her!! haha..

took this at the entrance.. the orange thingy looked realli cute n happy!!!


and then i tried to look cool. haha! but my attire was all wrong =p and i was trying so hard not to burst out laughing! =( i'm juz plain fugly boo hoo!!
...it's not dat bad rite..?

i took this of val! so proud of myself. i think i might make a great photographer someday too! haha.. NAH! it's juz dat val is pretty. haha.. the outside of the museum looks very nice and grand.. the inside looks elegant n yet modern stylish too. u guys shd check it out!
ok so i conclude dat our trip to the museum was realli educational (now we know which actor look gd with chest hair lol) and inspiring (started cam-whoring ourselves) ! yeay~!

monday took leave n went to sentosa. now look like a big fat roasted pig. every1 tot i had rashes or smthg. haha.. OOOUCH!!!