i look ok, i laugh, i joke. but u may notice that sometimes i look cranky, getting uptight for no reasons, etc.

i'm on the verge of breaking down. i know when u r reading this, u r probably thinking "i've been through much worst than her, what has she got to complain abt?" i dunno how much worse u've gone through, but this is not a comparison contest. u can break down with stress too, none of my business.

cant take it anymore..

and the worst thing is dat, no one believes u when u say u r too tied up with work, u r too tired after work. they just think "u r busy, so what? i'm busier. i've got this and this and this. what haf u got."

i dun understand why when i tell someone i'm really stressed up, and i've got too much things to do at work, they always return by saying "well at least u don't have to do *their own jobs*.. i've got this BLAH and that SHIT and this deadline.." and zzzzz it goes on.

and then wad? do they juz wan me to return by saying "well i've got all those u've got, and this project, plus dat deadline, and this that this that to complete.." ??
i dun mind losing in this kind of competition! in the end how does it end? they always want to hear things like "yeah u are really too overloaded with work. u haf to take care of urself. poor thing, u need a break. they r too much..blah blah" and other vocab meant for consolation. why havent u stop n think, maybe that's wad i wanted to hear from u too? i came seeking for comfort, u turn ard and say, "u shd comfort me instead, and i won't stop until u admit u are better off" wth?

some ppl juz dun get it. i'm one of them i think.

and i despise teachers more and more. sorry to frens who are teachers-to-be. i'm not refering to u. onli those jerks.

when u r young, everything is possible. when u r older, everything is juz ugly.
it is very sad to find out dat this world has turn its back on u, but then again, u will also learn who is really on ur side, thinking for ur well-being. u muz treasure these ppl.

i will try to be strong.. am trying.. forced to be strong.. wonder how long can i last..