i bet u all nv knew, i hated my name when i was young.

in pri school, i always got assigned to sit beside guys. well it was a love-hate relationship for my 10+ yr old self. boys r realli fun to play hide-n-seek with, go playground with, or play sega games with. But, being monstrous as they normally are, they can turn their back on me anytime and bully me cuz i'm a girl. if i cried, all the more fun it is!

so one day, i cried badly cuz one of the boys called me "Liew Li Lian! Like durian durian! HARHARHAR!"
and all the others seemed to think it's realli funny. when i went home crying cuz i dunno how to rebuke them, my mum told me

"笨lah！ 榴莲是水果之王mah! 不好meh?"
wah.. nv thought of dat b4.. good one mummy!

so the next day, i went back. sure enough, the stupid goon-doos were laughing once they saw me..
"Durian 来liao!! HAHAhahaha..."
"Durian 水果之王 leh! 是King OK?" I replied happily this time.
"King? So what! King 是男的 leh! 你是boy meh?"
"King就是King mah! Girl 也可以是king的 lah。"
"哼！！king 就 king。 我做 mangosteen! Queen of fruits!"

-_- just like dat, i accepted the position of being King, and he (forgot which one of them) became Queen.. haha.

and then, in sec 2, an Australian-accented teacher called my name in class "ermm.. Lai Lian?"
zzzz... Point made.

in sec 4, my E-maths teacher was giving back our books and when it was my turn.. "L-cube!"
... .... and he tot he was being humorous. omg.

and then, ppl often think it's funny to call me "ah lian".. which i thought was perfectly normal cuz my family calls me ah lian since the day i know my own name. den when i respond to them calling me an ah lian, they laugh even harder! like, duh?? haha... ok i muz say it is quite funny. =p

when mIRC became hot.. everyone had interesting nicknames.. and we often called each other by short forms. like zixing was zx, teresa was tere, cuimei was cm, huijing was HJ, xuexian was AX-square (for ang xue xian).. me however, was juz ll.

like wad, eleven? or sweatdrops -_-ll? so sianzz can..!?! *screams* lolz

i guess my name gave me quite some trouble.. but it's been mine for so long, i cant imagine ppl calling me something else..

but if u call me summersnow, i will oso react. hahaha!!





i think my fav thing to do is eating.. can i be a professional food eater? =S

1st, u start off with a salad... nice fresh greens wif a bit of vinegar.. refreshing!

then u order a main dish.. spagetti, tomato absed, cream based, tomato-cream based (new!), baked rice or baked spagetti.. n even soup based! lots of varieties!btw, this spagetti in the photo is................................................ fake!!! the egg look so yummy hor?!

ok after main dish, u can end off nicely with an ice cream dessert! their choice of dessert not much la.. but all looks good.. i havent tried any, cuz after the meal, too full to eat anything.. haha..

these r, of cuz, real.................................................................realli plastic! they are fake as well! wth wif restaurants these days. they make their displays look nicer den the real stuff.. haha..




just some random photos.. middle of the weeks is the slowest time of the week.. zzz.. haha..

here's when i was doing my rebonding.. i had a big plastic ballon on my head! and it contained all the steam inside.. pretty cool invention, except that i kept wanting to laugh at myself in the mirror.. hahaa..


the end product~!! realli straight~~~~ for 2 days. now it's starting to twitch a little at the ends. i can see it!! i can practically see it bending, in defiance to all the money spent! it is actually bending!!!!! ARGGHHH!!!

okok, back to sanity. of cuz it wouldn't stay silky and straight all the time.. the 1st 2 days were onli the 'after-salon-illusion'.. everytime u leave the salon, u r convinced dat ur hair the most beautiful u've ever seen, n u r so lucky to have come to the right place. den next day, ur hair flops the wrong side again... -_-

anyway, even tho i had stomach flu over the weekend, last fri i still met up wif the ai gals for jl's bday! and we tried the ice cream mooncakes of swensens!! it was pretty yummy.. altho it's not mooncake at all.. haha..

Strawberry ice cream on the inside... yummy~

shall share more photos next time.. now gtg sleep... zzz..

i wan my hair str again! T_T

ytd.. i went to rebond my hair... feels quite nice.. altho its not super straight aleadi.. ytd it was super straight.. today.. err.. haha still straight la.. it is looking more natural :x

went to kimage to do it cuz xing n cuimei both say it's quite good.. think now my hair looks more neater lo.. hope it will maintain.. bot their shampoo and conditioner.. quite ex too :( but the hairdresser say it's good for maintaining rebond hair.. well hope it's money well-spent.. haha..

anywayz.. took mc on fri.. not feeling well.. den receive bad news from xm.. hope she n her family will not be too sad...

tml is the start of another week..! as usual, i am looking forward to the next weekend.. haha.. i'm a born slacker.. zzz..




today, sat 15 sep 07, i did smthg i've nv done b4 in my life.. i went to OBS~!! haha.. nv been there in sec jc or uni b4.. a few days ago, shan (a trained OBS instructor!! @_@) sms us and asked who wanna go obs.. she could show us ard.. at 1st i quite reluctant.. cuz veri scared! i know i'm not the sporty kind of person.. go travel look see look see i still ok. ask me to climb hill jump water... no way!

but den.. she say she'll drive us ard in a boat.. den i got a bit interested.. it's not everday u get to sit in a boat which is steered by ur own fren!

den she say we'll only do rock climbing.. so i tot.. actualli not too strenous ma..

so i agreed.. xx oso went, along wif 2 more dragonboat frens.. wah they super zai lo.. all got rock climbing exp.. onli me dun haf.. so malu.. i almost gave up.. den they all say cannot! cannot! cm even pull me up a bit, and keep showing me where i shd grab or step on.. n told me to push myself when i wanted to give up.. shan oso.. keep encouraging me! thank you all so much!! even tho it was onli a short trip, i realli enjoyed myself a lot.. for someone who's nv done any outdoor sports except an occasional jog b4, this is realli a great new experience for me..! nv knew i cld climb so high!

and den shan even took out all the pots n pans meant for outdoor use for us to cook maggi mee and luncheon meat.. simple but fun lunch! but realli cant believe the set of pots is $90++... only a few metal pots ma.. realli need so ex juz bcuz its specially made for outdoor? -_- i shd go sell pots..

waiting at the punggol jetty...


on the boat (speedboat?) with shan leading the way~ but sitting at the front part is painful for my butt, esp when the boat rock so hard up and down.. my butt was like lifted up and then banged down against the metal seat.. OwwOwww! plus my track pants soak up all the water dat splashed into the boat.. -_- haha.. cm oso got a huge bruise for knocking against the side of the boat.. my arms r aching now too.. but it was fun~!





Today, 11 Sep 2007, is a day of CHANGEs.

1stly, i've changed my blogskin.. i think it looks veri relaxing.. however the theme seems to be a couple breaking up? oops i dunno, juz like the colours! haha..

2ndly, I've attended a course today, on Effective Change Management.. based on the book Who moved my cheese.. i learnt that (or rather, aleadi knew, but reminded of..) the only Constant is Change. When you have adapted to the changes, it is not a happy Ending, but rather, a new Beginning. coincidentally, recently, i've been thinking abt this... it is not an ending.. it is only the beginning of another long journey..

of cuz.. dat said, i still feel dat it is very hard to adapt in a new environment.. not very very hard.. but it is certainly stressful.. and makes u tired.. easily agitated.. i need to learn stress management!!

now i'm only banking on the hope dat as time goes by, i will learn the ropes quickly~!
quoting the other AMs, "Not willing to change can sometimes cause more pain than the act of change itself."




lately havent been blogging.. cuz dun realli know wad to blog abt... had been having bad mood swings..

time keeps on moving forward.. even when smthg terrible happened, and you thought the world would (or should) stop functioning for the moment, the clock still ticks, second by second.. you will be left alone, living in the misery of the past, if you dun learn how to move on with time..

ytd nite was our sch's teachers' day dinner.. as i was in my colleague's car, they were discussing problems that added to my stack of pressure already present. at the same time, i saw a rainbow appearing in the sky, like a wooden raft in the seas..
however, i was the onli one in the car to see it.. it made me feel priviledged, yet quite lonely.. suddenly it seems to be metaphoric of my current life.. i am alone in a strange world, filled with strangers, talking about things that i do not know. i feel lost and lonely..
but there's a rainbow, visible only to me, existing only in my world... i am holding on to it so tight, that i'm so afraid of it disappearing someday.. pls remove me from this world.. i wanna be happy..

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okok enuff emo posts.. rite now, i am so beat dat i can sleep for 24hrs.. haha.. u cant haf all in life.. juz give and take.. i need to learn stress management, and how to control my emotions.. hope dat i can do it!! =)