i juz realised... if u r a fast reader, i may sound like a silly schoolgirl chirping away in my blog entries... like some hyperactive kid. or even worse, like i'm trying to AC.. no not advent children.. i mean ACT CUTE~! so pls read at a moderate speed... haha..


yeah exams r over~! finalli!! after soooo long... so sianz.. and i've started work at NW CDC at woodlands civic centre.. it's quite ok la.. not veri difficult.. juz type in stuff.. and print.. and i haf a table for myself! dats quite nice.. plus a phone to myself too! heehee.. and a pc with internet connection.. the onli prob is.. i cant get the windows messenger installed! and the web messenger couldn't work either.. haiz.. wanna go online n chat la.. sianz.. i did quite little today, i guess.. onli 5 cases.. but it's bcuz they made me wait for a looong time! i was juz sitting there, waiting for work to be given to me.. so sianz.. almost fell asleep..




sian.. trying to study but i juz cant make myself concentrate.. my whole mind is on wad i can do after my exams! pls, ppl, promise to meet up after my exams k?!? i feel so anti-social now.. totally no life.. i wanna go out! away from my books! although shopping therapy is great, textbooks are the onli things i dun feel happy abt buying... so expensive yet so disgusting! argh!


i think instead of a bday wishlist, i prefer to haf a frens-to-meet and things-to-do list!
so here i go again.. cuz of ultra boredom.. hehe...

• my bestest frens from pri sch until now!
• my sec sch buddies..! xmas gathering? lots of bdays to celebrate this month!! heehee
• my 1st 3 months jie meis...!! hey babes, i miss u all!
• wq and ml too! sch mates cum ex-colleagues... missed those days!
• my silly cousin corny connie =p
• liting.. with whom i realli feel distance is onli a physical thing.. i've nv felt awkward or unfamiliar no matter how long we havent seen or tok to each other.. =)
• plus all other frens whom i havent seen in a long time too... life's been so mean to us hasnt it? haha..

• 2nd dec Teresa's bday~
• 11th dec Liting's bday..
• 14th dec urs truly =p plus weilin and seowwei!
• 16th dec val da gal's bday!
• 25th dec xmas day!
• 31th dec cuimei's and huimin's bday!

cant exams end any sooner? T_T

yes one paper left! hmm the microb paper was unexpectedly easy... dats not a good sign too, cuz it means everyone's gonna do veri well, den will be difficult to score! >_< sob ="p" align="left">anyway, here goes:

lastly...
9. juz a tite tite hug from u guys =) presents or not are not realli impt. staying in contact wif me is wad i realli wan from frens!


which reminds me.. how many of my frens realli read my blog anyway.. many of them dun blog, and they dun check my blog often too. so does dat mean posting a wishlist up here is useless? oh well, juz for keepsake lo.. haha... next time when i'm old i can look back and think, 'see? the desires of a young teenager.. so childish..haha..'

p/s: u r not obliged to buy me a present even if u happen to read this. haha.. but if u insist.. i wun mind either.. =p




i'm screwed.. sigh.. tml's microbiology and i feel so unprepared! cuz it's mainly memory work, and all the info juz doesnt seem to stay in my brain!! and i juz dun feel like studying anymore. urgh anyway last test i studied so much oso no use.. >_< this time the exam venue is at PGP MPSH.. where the hell is dat? y cant they use a more convenient place? wad if i cant find the place tml? =(


exams exams go away! >_<




sigh this whole exam thingy is such a drag.. and next tues feels so far away.. realli wan the exams to be over.. wanna relax.. wanna slack.. wanna go out w him, and watch a movie w/o the tot of exams nagging at the back of my head..


and straight after exams, i'm gg to work! hmm actualli i wanted to work oso la.. but now, suddenly it doesnt seem like such a good idea to start immediately after exams.. oh well nvm, still haf weekends =)




juz had my 1st paper ytd, the popular culture in contemporary japan. the title sure sounds chim huh? it's the anime module i was toking abt earlier on.. the whole exam was based on anime too! discussed several topics like japanese values, how they place group above self, homosexuality from history, persistence and zen.. all using anime examples! haha.. actualli i dun haf much examples, cuz dun realli keep a lookout for such things when i watch anime de lo... so... juz anyhow throw in the few animes i remember watching, and forcefully linked up the examples and my points. which is how i normally write anyway. haha. aiya, as long as u link them up, who cares how u link them. so long as u can convince the marker/trick the marker into being convinced/make him so confused dat he juz accept dat u know wad u r writing abt, it's ok! haha...


den the prof showed us an episode of an old anime, abt spaceships, nasty govt and pirates r the good guys. quite the typical show of govt being corrupted, den a few brave ppl wanna stand up for the ppl... in the end labelled as pirate but still well-liked by the commoners.. the ministers r always fat and ugly and stupid, with thick cigars in their mouths plus thick necks. why do i notice such things? haha..


quite cool actualli, to watch anime during ur final exams.. but after watching, i went 'huh?' and wondered wad was i supposed to analyze??!!? so... again i forcefully explained dat it was the voice of the common jap ppl, who felt oppressed by the govt and needed an outlet for expressing their unhappiness.. blah blah.. dunno correct anot, but i tot it sounded pretty logical.. i'm sure others wrote wad i wrote too.. cuz otherwise wad else can u write? haha..


after the paper.. i went to watch harry potter n the goblet of fire!! 1st thing i realised was dat ron and harry are no longer cute and boyish like how i liked them to be.. =( onli hermione was still pretty.. den the dumbledore was a disappointment.. the girl dat harry had a crush on, Cho chang(?) wasnt as pretty as i had expected her to be.. a bit baby fat.. hair not as black shiny sleek as described in the book! >_< and the 2 foreign schools.. forgot their names.. were ok la.. but the girls looked like some girl scouts.. and victor krim! totally not wad i had imagined him to be... had tot he would be tall, dark, slender maybe, long face and unsmiling.. well, he was tall and unsmiling.. but his face was veri veri round! in fact he reminds me of some mafia/gangster instead of the best seeker in the world.. sian. hopes were dashed. sigh.. had wanted to see more flying on brooms actions, but not much.. the dragons oso appeared onli for a while.. had wanted to see the chinese dragon! oh, and alastor moody was weird... ok so he's meant to be weird. but he was the uncle-y and psychotic-ly weird, not the mysterious and sinister weird. u know wad i mean?? funnily, the weasley twins turned out to be most entertaining.. and they looked the cutest too. the long hair suited them, but not ron! even gin (the sister is called gin rite..?) looked uglier. sigh.. wad happened to all the cute and pretty children? but as usual, the effects were pretty. so it was still veri enjoyable =)


i seemed to notice all the small things.. haha sorri la.. hope i havent spoilt the movie for those who havent watched! =p anyway everybody knows the plot ma. so it doesnt matter ba i guess. heehee.. ok! now i shall take a short short short nap and den start reading abt gene therapy. >_<




《走出黑暗的世界》


走出黑暗的世界吧 朋友

虽然外头依然是漆黑一片

然而那里有暖和的阳光

有轻轻吹拂的风


走出黑暗的世界吧! 朋友

虽然外头依旧是漆黑一片

然而那里有花儿的芬芳

有人间真情的温暖

只要你把你的双手伸出来

把你的心窗打开

你的眼睛已被无情的手遮掩

请不要让心灵也给掩盖


走出黑暗的世界吧 朋友

关心你的朋友们在切切期盼

希望你和他们分享生命的署光

陪伴你走过漫长的黑暗






darn.. totally no mood to study at all.. sigh my last min panic mode is still not on.. the weather is so warm... if i switch on the air con, i'll definitely fall asleep... even the hum of a spinning fan lures me to sleep... zzZZZzz... in the end i'm juz staring at my notes blankly, pigging out on junk food wif the excuse of needing to keep awake. Argh!




had my last prac today.. kinda sad cuz i actualli enjoyed this module the most.. learn a lot and the ppl r fun to hang around wif. even the TA is cool and funny.. anyway, juz got back the previous report.. and i got 92 for it! yea and i'm realli realli happy ^_^ at 1st was realli worried cuz this report was done in a rush as i had 3 to finish dat week. and Carol was saying "..now, some of u might be disappointed at the marks.. but it'll be moderated dun worry... however, u all muz understand there's a marking scheme to be followed.. if u dun write properly, even if they moderate, still cant give u extra marks.. at least write decently....blah blah blah..."

and so i was quite nervous lo.... kept staring at the papers in her hands as she toked and passed it out... den suddenly she turned to me and said "lilian, this time improved a lot leh"
buden i tot, "last report i was onli average.. so mabe this time improved oso not surprising?"
flipping thru, i couldn't find my marks... haiz.. was a bit expectant after hearing wad she said, but realli disappointed dat she nv put the marks down... peishan asked me why i looked so down... did i scored veri badly? and i told her i dun even know my score, and she showed me....
-_- how come i missed it? haha... anyway, veri happy la =p




am supposed to be working real hard rite now, but juz a short entry =p


most lecs and labs haf ended aleadi.. except for my biotech ones.. which will end this week.. time passes real fast! in abt 1.5 weeks i'll be having my exams.. and i havent even finish my assignments.. sigh. not much of a study mood either.. hehe reminds me of aiwen's blog...


"...you gotta be in the right mood!"
"And wad mood is dat?"
"Last minute panic!"


and dats rite, i need last minute panic. the prob is it doesnt come until the last minute... which might be too late for anything =S heh..


speaking of aiwen... yes gal, michelle's "curse" came true... -__- but i prefer dat we refer to it as a "spell". much nicer dun u think? =p when u r cursed, u'll try ways n means to lift it, but when u r spell-bound, u'll not mind being caught up in it. although no one can realli tell if it's gonna be a curse or a spell when u r onli at the starting of it.


argh. wadever it is, i'm feeling sooo sleepy rite now.. sigh i'll nv be able to start on my work.. it muz be the weather.. zzzZZZzzz...