lately haf been thinking a lot abt wad i'm gonna do after i grad.. dun think i'll be able to do honors so i'll probably be joining the working class next yr.. ytd while waiting for the protein to bind to the resin beads mixture shaking in the machine for an hour, me and other frens from the lab were discussing abt it.. 2 of them gonna grad this sem la.. so envious.. =p anyway, we came to the same conclusion: a degree in life sci is pretty useless w/o a masters or Ph.D... even with a Ph.D u might not get far. u can spend 20 yrs researching and finally earn a patent for urself, or u may nv get one.


so we started to look at it from the other way: abt wad we cannot do with a life sci degree.. and we came up with : Law, engin, medicine and dentistry. so dat makes the rest available to us haha.. but the both of them r gg to start their own business. in fact one of them (andrew) aleadi has a shop.. and the other one (yunxiu) says his is in planning.. haiz they both got plans aleadi, while i'm juz bumming around. as compared to them, i know too little and i'm too naive. sigh.. it's no wonder they all call me 'xiao mei mei'. it doesnt help dat the 2 other females in our group are all peishan-type.. smart and hardworking. in fact, one of them IS peishan! haha...


and den while waiting for another gel to run, we were toking to carol abt the prospects of life sci.. there's basically onli 2 routes la...: get an honours and do research.. or go into sales for biotech products. and carol was telling us how terrible research work was.. she suggested dat if we din realli like research, or rather, if we do not LOVE research with all our heart, please do NOT join research work cuz it's torturous, even for ppl who like life sci.. i wonder wad NUS did to her. she seemed so traumatised.. anyway, if we do not like neither of those 2 choices, we better start to learn smthg else.. so the 2 "lao ban"s were saying "onli doing business can make u rich! go n do business la!".. and they asked if i wanna join in and open a 2nd shop wif them. ... ... do i look like a 'lao ban' to u? haha..


as usual, all questions and no answers.. but to get answers we need infomation. so i guess i gotta gain more experience 1st ba... juz a side note: i think i'm carol's fav student! haha! cuz i'm the onli one she doesnt scold =p hmm.. mabe she thinks i'll cry if she scold me. haha.. but i realli think she's the few good TAs around.. half the TAs there cant teach for nuts lo.. in fact some of them are as blur as me, which is not good.. =p




i got back my physio test today.. veri veri veri lousy.. but i'm no longer bothered.. decided dat its useless whining over spilt water. mabe i shd find out wads wrong wif my answers instead of moping around. obviously i'm not giving them wad they wan.. so i gotta think abt wad issit dat they expect from us... at least the CAs showed me dat i'm thinking in the wrong direction..


then again, mabe the real reason why i wasnt feeling so upset by my results might be due to the REAL pain i was feeling! i fell down juz b4 i went to check my results!! so embarrassing la.. was walking from MD to sci.. the covered walkway in between.. den i juz spaced out for a while and oops i was on the ground... >_<>_< so i walked as fast as i could to find hj and she made me pull up my pants to check.. gosh got wound and a little bleeding. haha...




ytd got back my test results for microb... it was veri bad... =( so bad dat i dun felt like gg for CO at all.. was actualli quite looking forward to gg for CO cuz so long nv go le.. but the test results totally spoilt my mood.. was controlling my mood la, buden hj said smthg like "mabe we nv work hard enuff, dats y nv do well..." and i realli felt like crying le.. cuz from the term break till now my sch life had been crazy!!?! i did tried my best aleadi to finish everything on time... but the work juz keeps piling on and i cant help it wad.. so tired aleadi.. dats y felt so sad dat mabe she's rite.. i nv work hard enuff.. even tho i felt so tired, mabe i'm juz not doing enuff.. but where is the limit for enuff?! from past experience, it's always nv enuff no matter how much i do.. so started to stuff myself wif food.. ate a claypot pig's trotters, strawberry yoghurt, and Gelare ice cream single scoop double flavours b4 i felt better. and a lot fatter too but who cares. >_< was realli full after the claypot but it din make me feel better at all. so disappointing pot of pig's trotters. =( anyway, the conclusion is chocolate is always good for improving ur mood. =]


haiz.. like wad hj (and jerry too. a bit sorri dat i showed a sour face when he was toking to me at the canteen) said.. i can onli work harder and try to do better next time! cannot give up so fast...!! we muz buck up! so after tml, i'll stop gg to movies or ktv or shopping le. onli study study study... hope i can do it... =p




juz rushed thru 2 reports and 1 assignment.. x_x can one die from too much hmwk? cuz i feel half dead. at least killed half of my brain cells >_<

and after the 2 reports immediately come more work.. issit ever gonna stop?? haiz.. i can onli repeat to myself wad i've been telling others... hang on! 4 more weeks!! it'll be exams den.. mabe i wun be any better off (cuz exams r juz as bad) but at least no more projects/reports/assigments rite?

well i shd stop complaining.. at least i dun haf weekly tests (like aiwen)... oops r u gonna hit me? =p

the JS proj seem to be on a better track now.. makes more sense now.. hehe.. realli hope we can put up a good presentation for it.. at 1st i tot "Love" would be such a hopeless subject, but now it seems to be more interesting.