today.. my Fish passed away... i hope dat it had enjoyed its short stay in my room.. i will miss watching it feed and swim around, banging its head on the sides.. bye fishie.. i love u! T_T


btw, i wonder if anyone realli believe dat giving shoes as present is bad luck? is it realli true? although i am not veri pan-dang kind of person.. sometimes these beliefs make me uneasy.. wad if it is true.. hmm..




finalli gotten my results.. not too good but not too bad either.. at least i got a B- for the stupid physics paper.. i tot i would fail it! i mean, i onli scored 8 marks for CA1.. haha..


so dat means i am officially a fresh grad.... who can hire me? pls hire me.. quickly!! i am getting bored and i feel useless at home.. wanna get a job n start earning money!! need the moolah for shopping u know... great sg sales has begun! T_T pls let me find a job soonish...


so for now.. i'm juz staying home, or go out meeting frens.. slacking at home.. and sending resumes to wadever companies and email addresses i can find online and on newspapers.. >_<




a break-up is always so heart-wrenching. my heart hurts for u too, my dearest baby sister.. i know i always sound harsh on u. but i had to. cuz i know u needed me to be harsh. to give u the strength u need, to say the things u cant bear to say outright. it's ok.. everything will be fine. ur decision was the best for both parties, and u haf no need to regret having made a bad choice. u were brave, and i know u can stay brave. i will give u support and more assurance whenever u need it.


trust me.. u will be fine. so will he. mabe Fate has planned smthg different for the both of u.. dun be upset abt parting.. be glad it has ever happened. i'm sure u've gained lots of lessons from this period. u're more aware of wad u want and wad u need.. so be more careful the next round k? yes i am very very sure u'll haf another r/s. hopefully the next one u meet will the rite one. but u haf to know dat no matter wad, no one needs another person in order to live on. its all a matter of wants. if things gotta end, let it end. time will heal ur wounds and time will haf other plans in store for you. move on not with a weary heart, but be expectant and excited at the prospect of your future. ok?


like i always said, i will be with u, even in hell.. so cheer up ok?

now dat u r single, u can start enjoying all the priviledges of being single.. u've not had much experience at dat, considering dat u got attached veri young. it is veri fun. i can assure u. go on and enjoy it all. dun waste it. u nv know when u'll get attached again! =)




i guess not everyone realises the meaning of a blog.. to me, a blog is smthg which is quite private.. u discuss ur intimate feelings.. u share ur joys and woes with ur frens.. those who are concerned will read wad u haf to say.. cuz some things u juz cant express outrightly infront of ppl's faces.. also, a blog is sort of a diary. where u write down interesting events, which u wan to share wif ur frens.. so if u read my blog, u r sharing a part of my life.


done wif the rantings, i'm juz disappointed my own bf doesnt read my blog. =( but then, i've nv been a whiny.. he'll read if he wans to.. if he dun wans to, well, other ppl will read. rite my frens? =)


anyway, i was looking at my 1st webpage dat i had in 2003.. brought back so much memories.. i think i was cuter back then =S and more carefree. nv bothered abt getting a bf or wad. i juz enjoyed life and did wad i like to do.. i think i changed a lot.. i used to be more self-centered, always strongly opiniated, had the "if u like me u'll please me, if not, shoo off" kind of attitude. veri strong ego and pride too. but i did cherish my frens n family a lot.. mabe more den now. i guess i am starting to take ppl for granted again. bad habit.. and i used to be more sociable. joined more activities and made more frens. now.. i seldom talk to new ppl, let alone make new frens. of cuz, back den i was single =S plus i used to pray more back den. was a stronger believer in guanyin dat time..

and i put in a lot of effort in my blogs.. always tried to include themes in my monthly 'designs'.. searched for midis to put in the background.. tried to talk abt interesting issues so dat ppl will find reading my blog to be entertaining and interesting. now, i juz blog abt my daily life, which is often abt unhappy stuff. cuz i tend to write when i'm unhappy.. i think my blog's getting real dull rite? even my life's getting boring.. sometimes i cant stand it at all.. i will ask myself: "is this all to ur life? is dat all u've got? girl i'm sure u r not onli this!"


being in a r/s has its pros and cons.. pros i bet everyone will know. u feel loved, happy. but on the other hand, it makes u insecure, lose confident, and afraid of losing it. love makes u stronger and weaker both at the same time. how do u balance it? i dun think i will ever know.


anyway, if u r interested in looking thru my old writings.. and my photos (dat website is almost a summary of my whole life till 2004) from sch.. u can visit http://andra_the_sun.tripod.com
i even made my own banner to be used for linking me on ur website. haha..




wad a long day... 1st.. went to klunch at amk wif cm, zl and mer.. sang till voice gone.. den went gym... den after a bit of rest, went for dinner at secret recipe (lamb stew yummy!) and then watched poisedon.. so it's a veri packed day.. hehe..


poisedon is nice.. and touching.. but quite traumatising if u dun like sad shows.. cuz everybody in the ship died except for a few brave ones who tried to find (or rather, fought) their way out of the ship.. a father even sacrificed himself to save his daughter n the others.. it made me cried!!! sobz sobz... so sad!! y not happy ending?! but it is veri exciting, and action packed. nice movie to watch on the big screen!


next, i wanna watch Over the hedge, Superman and X-men3!!! bwahahaha...!!!


now i'm super tiredz..




i've found the Sesame Street theme song!! veri veri cute.... hee..


Sunny Day - theme


Sunny day - Sweepin’ the clouds away,
On my way to where the air is sweet.
Can you tell me how to get, how to get to Sesame Street.
Come and play, everything’s A-OK
Friendly neighbors there that’s where we meet
Can you tell me how to get
How to get to Sesame Street


It’s a magic carpet ride. Every door will open wide.
Happy people like you. Happy people who.
Like a beautiful sunny day sweepin’ the clouds away
On my way to where the air is sweet
Can you tell me how to get,
How to get to Sesame street, how to get to Sesame Street,
How to get to . . .




i feel so lousy.. he has to work, and i was still being difficult. but i cant help feeling like dat ma. i wil try to be more rational.. sigh..


ytd spent a lot of money.. bot a top at hereens.. plus all the money i spent on eating.. i think i spent more den a hundred.. urgh. havent found job, aleadi spending so much.. haiz.. pls lemme find a job soon... but i realli like the top, so its worth it. heehee..


anyway, i haf uploaded my bintan photos.. if u wanna take a look, u can go to
http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v419/andragal/bintan%20may06/

there's a lot of senseless photos tho. haha.. juz anyhow take.. n my camera v lousy.. so the photos r not veri nice.. =(




hey everybody~! me back! bintan was beautiful.. although there wasnt much things to do (cuz i dun dare to go for water sports... and the rest were too expensive) except for going spa-ing or sun-tanning at the gorgeous beach! the beach was realli realli pretty.. too bad my camera was lousy.. couldnt capture the scenery nicely.. but it'll stay in my mind =) alright, show u guys some pics we took over there ( and u can see my horrid hair too T_T )


the resort dat we stayed in.. it was quite pretty and the room was quite big la.. the only bad thing was the room was too cold and they dun provide toothbrush and toothpaste =x i mean, i tot most hotels would provide.. but oh well, it was still quite nice..



we went to the pool for some swimming.. the pool is realli pretty! and the water is warm and nice.. not cold at all! there's even a pool bar in the middle of the pool so dat ppl can buy drinks.. quite cool.. there's also a jacuzzi )jaccuzi? jaccuzzi??) there, which was quite fun to play in (a lot of bubbles..) and comfortable to lie in..




the 1st nite, i had serious cramps and i even vomitted, which i think may be due to the cocktail i had on an empty stomach (according to the doctor there)... haiz.. i spent $60 on medical bills leh!!! wad a waste of money.. but i was realli in pain and was scared too. realli glad dat he was there wif me.. although i think i freaked him out a bit.. =p


but the next day, i was feeling great again! and so we went off to Pasar Oleh Oleh, a small village made up of shops for tourists to buy stuff.. i bought a fake LV bag for my mum there =p haha.. and some other stuff.. of cuz i took a lot of pictures too.. the onli thing i dun like abt dat place is their transport system! so lousy de... confusing and interval between buses too long! haiz but cant be helped cuz they dun haf much visitors la...




den we went back to resort and went to the beach! but the sun was aleadi getting down by the time we reached.. haiz my fault my fault... tired after walking so much, so was lazing in bed, reluctant to leave the room.. but no matter wad, the beach is still pretty!! hehe.. took a lot of fun photos too..




ytd, we went to the reservior. its a realli ncie place.. like some nature reserve lake.. actualli the place wasnt opened to public yet, but bcuz we dropped by for a visit, the ppl there were super enthu abt bringing us about! so nice of them.. brought us to see the deers they had... took photos for us.. rent a paddleboat to us for onli $4! and they said "half hour, one hour, no problem!" haha.. they were realli veri nice..




den we went back to the beach.. the beach, i know i said this lots of time, but the each is realli pretty!! haha.. although dunno why whenever we went for sun-taning, the sun would go away, leaving onli clouds. haiz..


although bintan has no nite life ( all shops close early.. and nothing to do..) it is still beautiful and nice place for relaxing.. wonder when will i haf the chance again.. seeing as to how i need to look for jobs aleadi.. next week i haf an interview.. hope its an easy job and high-paying =s a bit hard hor.. haha. see how la.. for now, bye bintan! cya again if got chance!T_T






to those who met me for dinner or shopping trips: u guys were the LAST few to see my long hair.. sobz sobz.. which is now currently gone.. T_T


I NOW HAF SHORT HAIR~~~~!!!!!! *CRIES*


i feel so ugly.. and wanna cry as i look thru the photos i took while out with some frens:









My Hair..... it is gone... i will miss u badly.... T_T


on a brighter note, i met up with val n aiwen on sat too for some realli realli nice and pretty desserts! haha.. now i totally agree with aiwen dat desserts are perfectly fine for a meal! yesh babe dats the way to go! hehe.. this was wad we had at bakerzinn:




these pretty small cups r called tapas, and the icecream is cheesecake ice cream with strawberry toppings!! yummy!


tml i'll be gg to bintan, will be back on thurs.. be prepared for more shopping trips! for the Great Sg Sale is coming again!! muahahaha!




cOngRaTuLaTiOns~! It's CeLebRaTiOnS!!!!
ExAmS R OvEr bUt I hAf tO WrIte CVs...


so glad dat the torturous days r over.. but i dun wanna start working!! T_T i'm no longer a student.. i'm going to be a responsible adult... T_T why so fast?? i juz wan to remain as a teenager forever... haiz.. wonder wad kind of job will i find..? will anyone wan me?? =(


aiya dun care liao.. i'll juz do wadeva job dat is available lo... job-hop till i find one dat i like ba.. as long as there's no contract =p

WISH ME LUCK~!!