suddenly heard on yes933 this old song dat used to be the ending song of a taiwan drama.. veri touching de.. smthg abt a guy who died but his soul came back.. den he tried to stayed with his loved ones.. in the end still got separated..if i rem correctly la.. veri veri sad story. den the song oso super sad.. long time nv hear le..


希望


王杰


我把我的爱交给了你
希望你不要嫌它少
少少的言语浓浓的情
都在我的眼睛里


我把我的梦交给了你
希望你不要嫌它小
小小的梦想不会改变
这就是我的诺言


希望世间能有永远
希望真情不会改变
世上没有伤心人
岁岁年年到永远


我把我一生交给了你
希望你能和我一起珍惜
长长的一生慢慢地走
这就是我的全部


长长的一生慢慢地走
这就是我的全部

although last time i used to say this after the song :"huh? dats your 全部? this is a broke fella.."
hahaha.. juz joking la.. but realli funny ma... he keep saying dats all he have.. love and dreams and his life. =p but i still like this song a lot.. hehe




PMS is back... sian.. i think i juz need some sleep. sound sleep, not sleep riddled with bad dreams.. =(


juz had 2 CAs today.. the one with lower % is quite easy.. but the other one, protein module's test is quite hard... hmm not exactly hard, i knew all the facts, juz din know wad they were asking for.. in the end, i think wad i wrote wasnt wad they wanted.. haiz.. at least can pass ba.. so sad...


den went to watch final destination 3.. haiz such a scary movie.. yes yes exciting. but too much for my weak heart =\ i cant take this kind of gory horror shows.. think i will haf another nitemare tonite..


i seem to be keep getting nitemares.. when will they ever stop? wad am i afraid of? issit stress from sch? from family? i dunno. they juz occur... and sometimes i'm afraid to sleep alone.. den i'll move over to find my sis, or find my parents.. i'm such a baby i know. cant help it.. i'm as timid as a mouse. haha...




hey hey do this quiz for me if u havent done so aleadi!! hehe....
http://www.kevan.org/johari?name=andra1984


so far, lots of ppl had put 'silly' as one of their choice of words to describe me.. or they tell me they wanted tp put, but somehow nv put.. >_< put lo~ i nv say i mind ma.. haha.. in fact, dats wad i chose for myself too. haha..

i think my tutee is realli cute.. hehe.. today we went thru a bit of sci... and we were reading abt Energy. so i told him that light comes form the Sun.. but it travels veri veri veri fast. so fast dat u can nv see how light reaches an object and gets reflected to u! den he say 'ooh....', and started to turn and jerk his head about... "wad are u doing??" i asked him. "light realli travels too fast.." " wad? wad u doing..??" i was a bit mystified =S "trying to catch light coming from the sun ma.. hehe"

so cute rite? lol..

juz went for a charity performance ytd morning.. the day started off veri veri badly... 1st i forgot my ez-link card.. den i decided to take a cab. which now i think is quite stupid. shd haf taken bus wif coins.. haiz.. den smthg went wrong wif the bus taking us to marsiling.. we were early, bus was late.. couldn't contact anyone cuz their side oso nv meet up so early.. got the wrong bus driver's no. and name.. called and asked.. finally got the correct one. luckily teresa was wif me.. i dun think i would know wad to do in dat kind of situation.. anyway.. it went quite well... Phew.. was so afraid smthg would go wrong..

anyway.. i tot the performance was veri meaningful... we performed for old folks.. although the audience wasnt a veri active and responsive one.. it felt realli good to be there, cheering the home up with some music.. =)




am now in sch, waiting for dat grumpy old fart to finish his test and come find me.. for one thing, so pissed dat in his IE, got so many ppl's blogs but dun haf mine! T_T so i am using his laptop to blog juZ for fun =p




v day is over.. and mid term break is coming.. i can see the CA dates and assignment deadlines looming over me.. -_- but i cant help but keep feeling dat its still hols.. muz start mugging >_<


so how's everybody's V Day? still alright? mine was ok. din go anywhere, juz stayed at home, but still a nice evening =) went for a movie last nite. the movie was great but cant say it was an ideal show for a romantic nite. 1st, a couple broke up cuz the girl find the guy too poor and useless. den a mother got cancer and died, leaving behind a heartbroken husband and a terribly lost boy. another girl with burnt scars finally gathered up enuff courage to show her face to her crush, and she got rejected. finalli, the grand finale, a fireman died in a fire while saving others, on the very day he decided to propose. and wad did he do? he recorded a "I love u forever" video b4 he got engulfed by the flames. all the romance in me juz got killed at dat time =(


and the show reminded me of how ah ba passed away when i was in pri 4.. i too witnessed how his body weakened day by day.. from his loud hearty laughter to his soft struggling whispers.. his huge comfy arms to his fragile and withering skin.. although i had been to funerals b4, dat was my 1st time encountering death of a loved one. it took me weeks b4 i could cry. i can still picture in my mind, him lying on his bed, looking so in pain.. and i remember him telling me,

juz went back to visit ah sim again for cny.. she looked older, paler, thinner, weaker. still cheerful nonetheless. but it hurts me to see her grow old. and it scares me too. she juz had an operation to clear her blocked heart veins.. i cant bear the thot of her leaving this world one day.. i love her more den my own grandma. each time i visit her, i feel remorseful abt not visiting her more often. she used to take care of me like her own grandchild, treated me with so much love and tenderness. mabe my mother was too pre-occupied with my newly-born sister, she was my source of warmth, comfort dat i sought when i cried, and her arms were the safest haven where no one else can find me. at dat time, i must've loved them more den my own parents.


now how am i to get to sleep -_-




i had such a wonderful wonderful nite yesterday wif my beloved nj class. *hearts* i love all of u!! was so sad dat i missed the last gathering at michelle's place.. so was realli looking forward to the one ytd.. i had almost forgotten abt it until mark reminded me abt it. realli grateful for dat..


we had so much food: the large plate of "lou hei", the yellow potato salad and chicken salad (which were both laded with EGGS, somebody's most hated food heehee), bread n yellow cheese, ham with mashed apple (i loved the mashed apple), yellow sausages, chicken wings (sort of yellowish as well...) and lemonade (bright yellow). it was realli like a tribute to meiling.. haha.


been such a long time since i last saw everybody.. well i do see them on n off in sch. but we nv get to sit and talk properly. so ytd was realli a rare chance.. den mark and keith played some songs for us, keith playing the violin and mark piano. they were so charming! and i suddenly remembered i used to think guys who play violin are veri attractive. haha.. they didnt play the wang leehom song dat i told mark b4. well cant be helped.. was keith's 1st time playing those songs. i bet he has nv heard of leehom b4. "Tong hua", being a chinese song, is quite a feat for him aleadi. =p


and den, after getting tired from laughing too much, we finalli went home.. i realli couldn't stand the thot of walking out half an hour to the bus stop, and was hoping for a cab to appear. so i was telling aiwen "cant call cab in la.. the cab will be lost in here. so many small roads de.." and a taxi appeared! haha.. funnily, the driver realli was lost inside duchess ave. and he needed directions out. so me n mark got on, and he directed the driver out. yeay~! so so so lucky. dat place was so ulu, it was realli a miracle dat a taxi was in it.


so on the journey back, i was telling him how envious i was of him n wendy. they had been together since sec 4, and still going on strong! so many guys seem to be fickle-minded, and can have change of heart easily. so i was saying "You r realli a good man, mark. around me, u r the onli couple who stayed together for so long. everyone of us are impressed!!" (i'm sure i'm NOT wrong in saying dat. rite aiwen? we all are impressed arent we?) and he told me "haha.. dun say till lidat leh... erm.. yeah we are the few who are still together till now.. haha... (i tell u, he looked so ego and proud of himself) but....(BUT?? a 'but'??) admittedly, i do have other friends, girl friends, dat i like, i mean, attracted, er, ya i mean like them la! but it has onli been like dat. as in, i like some girls, but i only love wendy. it has always been like dat la.. (and Now he seem slightly abashed..LOL)


it was such an honest reply dat i was realli touched. i can't wait to go to their wedding!!! haha.. although it'll still be some years... but anyhow, after seeing so many break-ups, i was very much encouraged by his words last nite. Good men do really exist. Girls dun give up hope! (and val too.)