today was a crazy day... P1 Orientation Day is over.. but the after effects are gonna take a toil on all of us EAS.. but i muz tell myself everyday, i can do it, i can do it!

i'm not the only one who feels dat gg to work is like gg to war.. one day when i was leaving office, one of the clerks said, "bye! 明天再来打仗吧..".. and at dat moment, i was also thinking the same thing as i tapped my card to record my time-out..

i feel like when i step into the office, the 1st 10 mins is peaceful. after 10mins.. u can feel a bit of stir.. then 15mins, the wind gets a bit stronger.. after half an hour, a full hurricane juz whirls into the office and spins crazily all the way till 6pm. or maybe it's juz my mental state. haha.

recently haf been OT-ing a bit.. and oso bring work back home to do.. but somehow still feel that boss think i eat snake lidat... i dun understand y he is lidat.. but cm says i dun need to mind how other ppl view me.. as long as i do my things. i dun need him to notice my hard work. dun need him to appreciate me. i can be strong and face all the workload. so.. i mus!!

anyway, after the orientation.. i went home.. feeling so drained out, physically and mentally.. today i was realli depressed. i thot that it was a big mistake to take on this job. y did i apply for a management job when i dun haf the calibre of a manager. i dun even like leadership for goodness'sake. mabe i dun haf any calibre at all. i'm juz a weak good-4-nthg. =( but smthg good happened in the end.. me n cm went for scruumpilious dinner of wanton mee and supper of beef hor fun. and i bot a new luggage bag! actually i wanted a brown checkered duffle luggage bag, brand is called bchp or smthg. veri cheap. but no stock aleadi.. so i had to buy another one.. it's grey with light grey stripes.. i think it's quite nice too. n cheap! now the only worry is dat it's not big enuff for me.. haha. anyway, i'm juz very glad dat at the end of a day's hard work, i haf someone to console all my tiredness away.. and dats the reason for my smile everyday =)