whenever i'm feeling a bit sian, or unhappy, i attribute it to being PMS. Pre, Present, and Post-Menstrual Stress. so i haf a good reason to be unhappy all the time. Haha..


today went to uncle's house (whom i call shu shu). quite drama, cuz the xiao shu whom we havent seen in years, suddenly appeared with a luxurious car, announcing to us his wife, whom we termed as 'new shen shen', plus inviting us to his new condo for a bbq party. the lady seem veri young for his age too. He's abt 40 plus, and the girl seemed to be 20 plus! at the most, 30 years old. we kids, (if i'm still counted as a kid...) were discussing in the room abt her and how come we nv knew abt this new addition to the family until now! haha.. and xiao shu look veri different now. i used to remember him as unkempt, unhygienic and foul tempered. now he look so tidy, clean and well-brushed, and so mild tempered... all these changes.. all in the name of love.. or marriage? it's different, u know. haha...


den went to watch 'I not stupid 2'.. quite touching actualli. but after the show, i think i dun ever wanna haf children. so troublesome!! and no marriage too. onli spoils the relationship by having all those family-related problems. although i know there can be problems regardless of whether u r attached or single. but there seem to be more unsuccessful cases of divorces and separations than happy families around me. marriage can be veri detrimental to 2 persons. but for Andrea, who juz gotten ROM-ed, may u live in bliss till white hair grows on you both. haha..




happy CNY!! =D


been a long time since i last blogged.. ever since sch started.. not much time to blog.. long lab hours are back again.. together with all the stupid reports.. haiz. ultra sianzz..


but i managed to get quite a bit of fun in between too.. went sentosa chalet last weekend... again.. but this time with ai frens.. although not a lot of ppl went.. i still enjoyed myself veri much.. teresa even brought all the stuff to make pork floss rolls.. like 'heh bee hiam' dat kind of new year snack. and it taste veri good too! haha.. we had lots of fun making them.. but after the chalet, i dun haf the mood to go sch at all! plus all the CNY songs playing on radio recently, felt like holiday aleadi.. haha..



after 2 days at the beach, think i'm a little darker.. =p


had my 1st protein lab on tues.. it was horrigible!!! 1stly, i remembered the time wrongly. it was supposed to start at 12pm, but i reached at 2pm! ppl there tot i was being 'fashionably late'... they were staring at me like an animal.. >_< but i calmly put on my lab coat and joined in a group like i planned to be so late... haha..

i hate my group... kena grouped together wif 3 PRC guys... i think the way i feel for PRC guys may be equivalent to how aiwen view TCHS guys. they totally cmi!!! mouth stinks, empty-headed, clumsy and slow in reaction. cant stand them!!! we took sooooo damn long to finish the expt.. which was not hard to do at all, honestly. all they had to do was to FOLLOW INSTRUCTIONS! and yet they screwed up.. sianz.. y am i stuck wif them.. i practicalli did all the expt myself..


anyway, CNY is finalli here. juz wanna sleep my head off at home and forget all abt the reports. XING NIAN KUAI LE~~!!




the sun is finally out again! went to sentosa on last sat.. wanted to sun tan but onli for a while den went to play in water.. din realli get a lot of sun on us.. after dat went to bugis for shopping! bought a denim skirt and a cheap yellow top..! hehe.. but wad i realli wanted to buy was shoes.. in the end nv buy shoes at all.. haiz.. but so strange.. whole SG goes bugis on sat or wad? i saw so many frens/ppl i know there.. haha.. saw huimin, my previous TA Elicia, Jaron and oso Val!! dats quite a lot of ppl in one day..


den ytd went ktv at nite.. so ex!! $23... could've bought a vcd home to sing lo.. haha.. haiz muz save money le.. cannot anyhow spend.. dun even haf tuition now lo.. so sian.. hope ang bao can get more... >_<

today's lab was terrible.. totally had no idea wad was going on.. except for the antibiotic resistance part... the rest i dunno wad we were doing!!! sianz... how to write report lidat? and my TA was not veri good oso lo.. little bit oso cannot.. petri dish cover juz opened a bit n touch table, she say throw it away.. the table got sterilsed liao leh.. shd be ok ma.. anyway.. its onli a lab.. y so serious.. =p okok i'm a bad student..




i've become so whiny and blue these few days.. muz be the rain.. why doesnt it stop? would be nice to see the sun once in a while u know... @#$%


well bidding is over.. and i got all my modules.. i'm taking 3 cores, an SS module called SIngapore legal business, and a sci gem called great ideas in contemporary physics.. wonder if these modules r difficult.. i onli have 1 last s/U.. will be using it for the ss ba... its level 2..


after reading my frens' blogs, i realised i'm not the onli one feeling blue.. altho i cant say i am feeling as bad as them.. but still i cant get myself energetic or excited abt sch or anything.. realli sick of the rain! cant it stop?


went to chinatown wif mum n sis today.. wow the crowd is scary.. so many ppl!! but the mood was quite good. so many ppl shopping even tho it was raining.. felt a bit cheered up. but was immediately tired out by the crowd.. cannot stand crowds la.. they suffocate me... *cough cough cough*


heard of another breakup.. sigh. like wad we wrote for our "Love" project last sem, love can be an empowerment, but it can also be a weakening force.. it can be fragile and yet strong. and ppl often use love as a self-justification for the things they do.


in my view, love is like a china vase. it is beautiful, but is easily broken. u may think u can tolerate small cracks, but even the slightest crack can deepen slowly until the whole vase splits. the cracking of the vase is a short process. the tricky part is the broken pieces left behind. how much time can one afford to spend on picking up the pieces?


of cuz, it's not juz about romantic love. everyone has a lot of vases; each vase represent a relationship with ppl in his/her life.. family.. frens.. each and every one is fragile. so ppl, pls take care of ur vases.. and remember, adding a rose to it every now and then doesn't hurt at all! =)haha..









went to ecp ytd happily wif blades onli to be dampened by the stormy weather.. sian.. but other den dat, had spent a nice weekend wif my dear and his frens at one of their place. played bridge and a game similar to heart attack until 4am plus.. eyes could barely stay opened... -_- zzZZzz slept till 12 the next day and couldnt pass my sis back her blades! haha..


it's 2006 aleadi.. my new year resolutions are to work harder this sem.. my grades are not good enuff to get hons.. at least grad with a merit.. and to find a good job after i grad.. oso to save money cuz i think i haf to start paying back the sch fees back to my dad's cpf this year.. oso, i muz try to be a better person (yeah sounds so cliche but its true).. control my temper, dun always say things on impulse.. decide wads my piorities and at least plan a bit about job-seeking..

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there's a reason why ppl study history.. cuz it repeats itself. u'll think dat if the same thing happens again, u'll know wad to do aleadi.. but i guess dat onli happens in dream.. i still get angry at hearing the same old accusations.. i realli shd get used to it..

u know, sometimes, when a thread has been tensed up for too long, it juz breaks. u can try to fix it back, but it'll nv be the same. for now, juz let me recover. bcuz it realli is not easy to be ur best fren. u need someone to be there for u, but so do i. wads wrong with being tired of giving all the time? saying dat i'm tired is an underestimate. i'm more like paranoid abt it. i juz wanna get away from all the unhappiness and negativity. need to recover my own storage of positivity b4 i can brace it again.

she says she cant even tok to him anymore. it's worse for me.. i cant tok to either of them! both of them always bring up the old issues dat i juz wanna forget. why cant they let go? there r bigger things in life. better things to do.. y waste ur life away in unneccesary unhappiness?


am i giving up aleadi? disheartened? i think so. but pls dun think i'm heartless or wad. cuz it hurts to give up too. wad makes u think i'm veri happy wif such an outcome? i think we shd try to let go of our grudges, let nature takes its own course, and try to restore our friendship..
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lately another close fren of mine is facing a veri serious problem too.. i feel so worried for her.. i wish i could help, but it's too sensitive an issue for me to haf any say in it. i dun even dare to voice my opinion in fear of influencing her decisions, or shaking her determination to make her deicision..


to those who think religion is not an impt factor in relationships, pls knock urself on the wall. of cuz it is impt! esp if one of them is a devotee.. try not to get urself into another tragedy plot like a tv drama. but if its aleadi occurred, den no choice.. u gotta stick it out.. all the best.. i will always be giving u my utmost support when u need it.
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i finalli finished half of the harry potter book.. taking me quite long.. for now.. i gtg sleep...