so guilty! today whole day nv do any work... woke up real late.. went out straight away after brushing teeth washing face... met jing to go trim eyebrows... heehee.. den went for lunch at tcc.. aiyo we spent a lot of money n time there... *hears money Zinging out of my purse*

chatted while we eat.. sigh couldnt finish the potato wedges.. but at least we finished all the chicken n breaded dory.. den had a cup of coffee each.. jing din add any sugar at all!!! so scary... i added 2 sugars and 2 milk lo... veri bitter.. anyway.. chatted more.. 2 lazy girls wasting time at a cafe lol.. after dat i dragged her out to go to hereens.. we went to the beads shop and *omg* spent lots of money there again. *Zing zing!!* >_<>

after dat i went for tuition (finalli earning money..) haiz feeling guilty.. cuz i'm gonna poach their students.. not realli poach la.. juz told the students dat i dun wanna teach at the centre anymore.. if they still wan me to teach, they'll haf to come my house.. and they say they wan.. so.. they r not gg back to the centre anymore!! >_<>

hope there wun be retribution for stealing business? haiz i'll make a poor business women.. lidat jiu feel guilty.. still wanna learn abt business somemore.. >_<

又是中秋节！ 哈哈。。 我今年又吃了好多月饼。。。 冰皮又双黄。。 娃哈哈哈。。

alright end of the futile attempt at writing in chinese -__- wonder why i juz cant write nicely in chi..n and i used to get A1s for my chinese in sch.. why cant i 脱口成章 anymore? is the idiom even correct? Lol..

anyway.. this yr's mid-autumn doesnt realli feel veri mid-autumn.. not much atmosphere.. i think onli kids enjoy mid-autumn fest ba.. candles and lanterns and all.. haha.. i used to love it..

this afternoon i chatted wif hj....... yep dats all i did.. i chatted the whole afternoon away on the phone! haha.. so shuang.. =p nothing beats toking to ur close fren abt the big and small stuff in ur life on a afternoon wif nothing to do (except hmwk) ;p and den i decided i was rotting way too much at home and went to causeway pt to 'collect' my sis and bring her shopping. it's her bday today and i juz couldn't find anything for her.. so decided its better for her to go choose herself.. haha.. and i bought 1 black t-shirt and 1 pink polo tee for her.. yea she needs clothes anyway.. i bought one for myself too x_x let me loose in a mall and i'll spend all my $$.. haha.. almost wanted to buy this sweet looking heels wif butterfly ribbon from c&k... buden i decided its a bit high for normal casual wear.. and i dun need formal heels liao.. so nv buy.. sob sob.. actualli realli feel like buying leh.. =< if any of my shoes spoil this week i'll go buy XD

and den i used my new debit card to pay... on the card, i put my name "Li Lian" on it... today dunno why i was super blur.. i told the lady "i'll use ATM...".. she looked at me weirdly but she said "ok sure".. den i realised... where got ppl say ATM de????? its NETS la bodoh~!!! haha.. the consequences of rotting too much.. the rotting has gotten to my brains.. den after dat, she said "thanks Ms Li!" ... ... ... it took a moment for me to realise wads wrong... I'm not Ms Li!?! T_T why she called me dat.. haiz.. reallin regret putting the spacing between my name on the card now la... sianz... sound like some china name ... surname Li den name Lian... haiz.. too late le la.. cannot change liao... T__T

ANYWAY its ok.. i'm happy wif my new yellow happy-looking polo tee. juz a bit disappointed dat the pants wasnt fitting.. it was realli realli baggy lo... even tho it's aleadi size 24.. it's not 24 at all!! so big! the cutting was realli wide.. wonder who they made the pants for.. size 24 normalli veri small de leh! girls shd know rite?! but even size 24 was too big for me T_T i felt discriminated against.. boohoohoo...

recently found another version of the song "我真的受伤了" by a female singer.. realli nice.. =) so soothing...

found this interesting 心理测验 online =)

MOOD ANALYSIS TEST RESULTS
You are striving for a life full of activity and experience and, perhaps even more, an environment where you would be able to forge a close bond with a person who can offer full emotional fulfillment.
You are full of stress at this time. It would seem that you are having more than your fair share of trials and tribulations and you are looking for a way out. You are not quite sure which way to go but the advice is - 'Stop trying so hard'.
The way things are, you feel that you are stuck in a rut and there is not much you can do about it. You feel frustrated and inhibited but if you can find a way to let yourself go, you may find that things aren't quite so bad as perhaps you thought they were. One consolation is that since you are an extremely emotional individual, with the right person you may be able to release some of that frustration and tension with some mutual tender loving care.
Whatever you strive to do, something always seems to be holding you back. There is no subterfuge in you. You are a clear thinker and all you demand from life, in a relationship, is a partner whom you can trust and with whom you can, together, develop a foundation of trust based on understanding. You are your own person and you demand freedom of thought to follow your own convictions. You have no interest in 'two-timing' and all you seek is sincerity and 'straight-dealing'.
You don't like authority and you rebel against all forms of limitation. You are your own person and you intend to stay that way and to get on in the world simply by your hard work and determination.

from: http://www.colorgenics.com/sps/

and it's damn accurate. go try it! n lemme see ur results too! hehe..

so tired these few days... so many hmwk too... like nv-ending de. and havent read a single page of the chaps dat i'm supposed to read for my 3 lsm modules... die die die...


this is the period u'll see me walking around nus looking like a zombie... panda eyes and haggard face... z_z


the computational sci GEM module i took is horrible... so difficult.. 1st time in my life i encounter an assignment asking me to make smthg happen out of commands.. some kind of code... starting from the 2nd lec i aleadi find it hard to follow... now i totally dun understand wad he saying! he might as well be speaking French cuz not a single word made sense to me.. T_T jl oso say she dun understand.. i think onli lk understand.. -_- i hate stereotyping but somehow guys realli seem to understand faster! haiz nvm.. me n jl juz haf to try harder >_<

out of my 3 modules.. i think the onli module i understand better is the biotech one.. mabe cuz i'm taking it w/o jl n hj, so feel more compelled to understand n take more notes in class ba... during microbio n physio i always stare off into space w/o realising.. (of cuz it might be due to the fact that one is the 1st lesson in the day and one is the last of the day...) also, w/o jl n hj in lec wif me.. i realise i can still mix around quite ok.. =p at 1st onli sit wif one girl called cui sia, knew her since yr 1 but not veri close to.. den another 2 ppl i knew, but not close oso, sat wif us too.. den peishan oso came to join in recently.. so.. in a few lectures, i've formed a line of "lilian's not-so-close frens" sitting together.. lol.. den i realised all our surnames start wif 'L', so often see each in labs.. so actualli, they might know each other too.. haha..


haiz hope tml wun feel so tired anymore... i wanna finish my hmwk quickly too...
recently xm tried to bring me into a company to do part time business.. and the mentor wan me to make a list of wad i want, and wad i dun want. so i can focus my mind ba... but i realised i juz wanna..... ..... ..... sleep. -___- mabe i should haf been born in the year of pig...

MCFLY

"I'll Be OK"

When everything is going wrong

And things are just a little strange

It's been so long now

You've forgotten how to smile.

And overhead the skies are clear

But it still seems to rain on you,

And your only friends all have

Better things to do.

[Chorus:]

When your down and lost

And you need a helping hand

When your down and lost

Along the way

Oh, just tell yourself

I, I'll be OK

Now things are only getting worse

And you need someone to take the blame

When your lover's gone

There's no-one to share the pain

Your sleeping with the TV on

And your lying in an empty bed

All the alcohol in the world

Could never help me to forget

[Chorus:]

When your down and lost

And you need a helping hand

When your down and lost

Along the way,

Just try a little harder

Try your best to make it

Through the day,

Oh just tell yourself

I, I'll be OK

You're not alone (you're not alone)

You're not alone (you're not alone)

You're not alone

Just tell yourself

I, I'll be OK

Oh, just tell yourself

I, I'll be OK

Won't you tell yourself

[Chorus:]