had a veri bad day today.. kenna scolded by a crazy menopause doctor in the clinic. =(

i wanted to recruit 2 of her patients, but they came very early and it was their turn b4 i could talk to her. so i knocked and asked for her permission when the patient came out. but the patient refused. so i tot, well juz try the following one, as i'm not supposed to force them to participate. i knocked n went into her room again to ask for her permission to speak with the next patient. in the end, she scolded me "if i had 10 patients, are you gg to knock 10 times??" and much more. all ridiculous crazy screaming abt wad i shd do and wad i shd not do. but it was veri impt for me to obtain permission 1st. besides, i was supposed to wait till she ask the patient for me, then i juz pass them to sign consent form and explain to them in detail abt the research! i wasnt supposed to talk to them by myself at all lo.

shamefully, i cried. i know it's too childish of me, but i was very tired dat day and her crazy ranting made it worse. but it made me realised dat everyone else were on my side instead of hers. all of them were not surprised dat she threw a fit. cuz they all seen b4 aleadi. i went back and sent an email to her and both my bosses too. my boss said i did the rite thing and asked me not to think too much abt it. he's consoling me rite?? i knew he'll understand wad happened. =)

anyway, i aleadi haf 3 new patients for this week. which i think is not bad. this job is turning out to be a bigger n bigger challenge as the days pass. but i dun realli wanna stay in this for long.. hopefully i can find out which labs are hiring, so i can jump soon. altho i like my boss n colleagues veri veri much.