grumpy whinings... can ignore this post..

ytd i watched my sis performed hip hop dance onstage.. she and her frens look really happy, and vibrant, and full of excitement. i'm so proud of her~!

but also wished dat i can be like her.. i realli dunno wad i wan. to everybody else, i seem to be having a pretty good time now.. easy job wif lots of free time on hand, and a nice bf to meet me for lunches in sch, and for dinner after work.

i feel like i'm walking in mud, and i'm stuck. so stuck. i've tried to run thru the thick mud but it makes me feel even more tired. i guess the best way to get thru is to be patient and slowly move thru the mud without making useless effort trying to run as fast as i can.

my brain is decomposing from all the waiting i do at work! everyone thinks i shd be happy, cuz i can reach late, and go off early. i can meet my frens and bf at sch everyday. i dun haf much work stress. but do u know that not having anything to do can also drive u nuts? i happen to be the kind who cant haf nothing to do! besides, i need to spend so much time at the clinic, even tho i may haf nothing to do, i cant do anything else! i can surf the net sometimes when there's an empty room, but dats not always available. plus the internet is so slow, and uses dial up u know? i dun haf a seat or a desk to myself at NUH, i cant even haf a place to sit and wait. i can onli hang around the place, waiting like some lost dog.

i wonder long can i take this.. sorri to make u guys read such a long and grumpy story.. but thanks..