went to ecp ytd happily wif blades onli to be dampened by the stormy weather.. sian.. but other den dat, had spent a nice weekend wif my dear and his frens at one of their place. played bridge and a game similar to heart attack until 4am plus.. eyes could barely stay opened... -_- zzZZzz slept till 12 the next day and couldnt pass my sis back her blades! haha..


it's 2006 aleadi.. my new year resolutions are to work harder this sem.. my grades are not good enuff to get hons.. at least grad with a merit.. and to find a good job after i grad.. oso to save money cuz i think i haf to start paying back the sch fees back to my dad's cpf this year.. oso, i muz try to be a better person (yeah sounds so cliche but its true).. control my temper, dun always say things on impulse.. decide wads my piorities and at least plan a bit about job-seeking..

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there's a reason why ppl study history.. cuz it repeats itself. u'll think dat if the same thing happens again, u'll know wad to do aleadi.. but i guess dat onli happens in dream.. i still get angry at hearing the same old accusations.. i realli shd get used to it..

u know, sometimes, when a thread has been tensed up for too long, it juz breaks. u can try to fix it back, but it'll nv be the same. for now, juz let me recover. bcuz it realli is not easy to be ur best fren. u need someone to be there for u, but so do i. wads wrong with being tired of giving all the time? saying dat i'm tired is an underestimate. i'm more like paranoid abt it. i juz wanna get away from all the unhappiness and negativity. need to recover my own storage of positivity b4 i can brace it again.

she says she cant even tok to him anymore. it's worse for me.. i cant tok to either of them! both of them always bring up the old issues dat i juz wanna forget. why cant they let go? there r bigger things in life. better things to do.. y waste ur life away in unneccesary unhappiness?


am i giving up aleadi? disheartened? i think so. but pls dun think i'm heartless or wad. cuz it hurts to give up too. wad makes u think i'm veri happy wif such an outcome? i think we shd try to let go of our grudges, let nature takes its own course, and try to restore our friendship..
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lately another close fren of mine is facing a veri serious problem too.. i feel so worried for her.. i wish i could help, but it's too sensitive an issue for me to haf any say in it. i dun even dare to voice my opinion in fear of influencing her decisions, or shaking her determination to make her deicision..


to those who think religion is not an impt factor in relationships, pls knock urself on the wall. of cuz it is impt! esp if one of them is a devotee.. try not to get urself into another tragedy plot like a tv drama. but if its aleadi occurred, den no choice.. u gotta stick it out.. all the best.. i will always be giving u my utmost support when u need it.
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i finalli finished half of the harry potter book.. taking me quite long.. for now.. i gtg sleep...