i'm realli so down on my luck recently... ytd's chain of interviews was awful... one interview is bad enuff... i actualli went for 3 in a day.. mabe i shd put off job-seeking for now.. =(


and i was thinking, can things get any more worse? everything is aleadi so wrong.. my job seeking.. my co practices.. even with frens.. everything is juz wrong. and then today, when i had felt slightly better cuz i went to see dentist and found out dat i'm not having a wisdom tooth after all, i was starting to feel dat mabe, juz mabe things r gg to get better. and den i lost my phone. my new phone! the one same as cm.. the one with all my photos.. and all my frens' numbers.. some i rarely talk to now.. so will be hard to get their numbers.. plus i'm not working now.. where do i get the money to buy a new one?? i know perhaps papa is gg to buy me one.. but i'll be so guilty.. dat phone was aleadi paid by him.. n now, due to my own stupidity (and the thief's evil nature), i haf to spend even more money.. y cant i get things right these days? there seem to be nothing i can do properly. why? i wonder wad else can happen.. will things get worse n worse? mabe i'll lose my wallet? mabe i'll lose my whole bag and er hu too? mabe i'll not be able to find a job even at december? mabe i'll break a leg? mabe cm will meet some other girl and dump me? mabe i will fall sick seriously? or mabe i'll fall down the stage during my grad ceremony? so many things dat can go wrong..


i know i'm thinking too much.. but its hard not to.. when everything is juz so disappointing and u think the world is so sad. well at least cm hasn't dump me yet.